March 9th, 2009
March 5th, 2009
GETTING TIRED OF EVERYTHING POSTED AT 01:27 AM There's a point in your life when you get extremely tired of everything that you do for the one you love. You exert such effort to make that person happy and when you do, you would feel the same way. But when things become procedural rather than supposed to be a random-exciting-relationship, you tend to feel taken for granted of. Sure we can say, that person can tell all the world that he loves you and makes your heart leave breathless everytime he kisses you. Or hold your hand while walking on the street, or kisses your forehead while standing on the train, or text'es you everytime you wake up and go to bed while running his finger through your hair and he'll hug you tight at night after a good night sex. Sure he can do these things or could be more, but he can do it only when you're the one who's asking him out. Don't get me wrong, he's so into you, in fact, he can do things that can knock you off your feet. Fine, we'll leave old school dating aside because it's no longer "in" in our today's world. As long as you get what you want, then good for you. You can say you wouldn't mind paying the bills, as long as you're with him and enjoying each others company. But maybe it would be nicer if it's not that way. When things get habitual, it doesn't make you feel good about yourself. Food will become your comfort zone and you wouldn't feel pretty as you were before. Of course you'd like to stop not because of fidelity issues but because of you losing self-steem. You want to leave him but you just love him so much you cant let him go.
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January 23rd, 2009
AND YOU TELL ME YOU MISSED ME... POSTED AT 12:35 AM After a long week of not texting him... He texted me and said "I miss you..." You only realize my prescence when I'm not with you... Maybe I'll do it more often. |
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January 16th, 2009
TOO BAD YOU CAN'T READ THIS POSTED AT 12:23 AM I wish I could tell him that I'm getting really tired of loving him. Sometimes I feel like leaving him, but something's holding me back. And the more I stay, the more painful it gets. No, I'm not a meantime girl. |
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January 9th, 2009
PASSENGER SEAT POSTED AT 01:33 AM I somehow pity myself. I don’t feel happy anymore. There are times when I get to think if I can still endure keeping him, though I don’t want to let him go. But the pain is so real. Sometimes, I would just wanna take a lot of sleeping pills so I’ll never wake up when I sleep. I feel so empty. So hollow. It’s funny when he’s not here when I need him most. I miss the passenger seat. |
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